October 20, 2013
Over the last few weeks I discovered something pretty important.
Regardless of how strong we think someone is, and how much love you have for someone, they can get sick. Never in a million years did I ever think my dad would be diagnosed with Cancer.
Pretty foolish huh?
Especially when I stop and think about my dad's background. Many of you know my dad is former military. My dad served honorably as a Staff Sargent with the 56th Field Artillery Unit in Germany until the world seen the end of the Pershing Missile.
More important was the role he played in helping guys who were in trouble and were looking at a life outside the military if they couldn't "shape up and fly right."
Enter my dad.
My dad cleaned these guys up gave them the guidance, and in some cases the kick in the butt they needed, in order to stay in the Pershing Unit. For some of these guys, my dad, was their last chance for having a military career. I lived with him and my step mom for almost 2 years in Germany (toward the end of my high school years). So, I had a front row seat, to the impending festivities.
You know all those military movies with the Sargent and bags of toothbrushes? It's true. I seen my dad bring home more than one brown paper bag filled with toothbrushes, from the commissary, for an early morning floor scrubbing. Which usually took place bright and early Saturday when hangovers are at their worst.
These men could have hated my dad.
But none of them did in the end. I'm sure they didn't like him much when they first met him though.
Don't think for a second I was special. I was served with more than one 5 a.m. wake up call from the SSGT banging on my bedroom door, yelling about daylight that was burning, and a threat to turn my mattress over.
I would like to think he wouldn't do that to his own daughter but, I am pretty sure, he would have.
I have always been very proud of my dad and his service to our country. My dad even served before I was born, in Thailand. He doesn't discuss his time in Thailand much, but he does tell a story about why he refuses to wear a wedding ring, a deuce and a half, and the sniper that almost took him out.
I have always thought of my dad as a hero. I felt my dad was serving an even greater cause - keeping his country safe. I had to come up with something to justify his being gone.
I never thought anything could touch him. I told myself, as a child, when he gets done keeping us all safe he will come home and life will always be good. You see, in my mind, I let the U.S. Government borrow my dad for a short time.
I would love to tell you all the stories about my dad, before his military service. The stories his childhood friend told me. True, "Dukes of Hazzard," stuff in the corn fields and back roads of Iowa that lead to his first enrollment in the U.S. Army. Back in the day when parents could march their kids down to the local recruiter. Stories I was never supposed to hear. You would truly get a kick out of those stories.
But, I promised him I would keep those to myself.
Well, as many of you know my dad was diagnosed with Cancer. We found out on the 15th he has Stage 2 Large Cell Neuro Endocrine Carcinoma. It's a rare form of Cancer. This is not the first time Cancer has touched our family. We have lost many loved ones to this horrible disease.
How is my dad holding up?
While he may not be a U.S Military man anymore, he is still an Army Staff Sargent at heart and in thought. He is attacking this, just as he would any other hurdle in life - straight on and with more fight than I could possibly muster. He knows this will be a battle, but he has faced many.
I still admire his strength and courage. He gives me every reason to. If at some point he can't find the strength, I will help him, along with the rest of our family. While I am back home in Ohio now, I will be returning to Iowa after the first of the year, when my dad has surgery, which of course depends on the outcome of more tests.
There are so many unknowns when it comes to this. We are only a few weeks into it and already we have been dealing with the sting of little to no information.
So, why do I bring this up on a blog site that focuses on Bigfoot?
Because first and foremost we are people.
I started out this blog site discussing the stories of others. I never really talk about my family, myself or my life much. There are really very few in this community who can really say they know me as a person and not the "Bigfoot hunter."
We know very little about each other. Other than what we hear.
I have always said that. It's something we do not recognize often enough. But, at the end of the day, we are all people, who want the same things.
At least I hope we do.
There is no larger purpose for this article. I have no intention of lecturing about Cancer and the millions of things that can cause it. I am not going to tell people to hug their children or tell their families how much they are loved.
I am assuming you all - already have.
This story of Cancer is one of millions. But, this one story, is my Dad.
September 23, 2013
You bad bigfooters!!
As much as I hate to admit it, Ms. Hill is right, on this point.
"Bigfooters" do behave badly.
But when was the last time a "Bigfooter" received constructive criticism that amounted to something? It's a two way street.
Ms. Hill is also ignoring the fact that skeptical researchers like me are bashed heavily by the skeptics she calls "scientific". Where is the science in saying that because I look for this animal then that makes me a "believer?" That's the comment all of us have seen on skeptical websites like the JREF. I am not a "believer" I investigate stories told to me by others. I would say roughly 95% of what I investigate; I can make the determination that the witness had a mis-identification. I am honest about that along with many, many other "Bigfoot Researchers" I know.
Do the skeptical Bigfooters get any credit for being skeptical?
Who decides what is "skeptical enough?" Is there a board somewhere we "skeptical bigfooters" should apply? The lines for "Skeptical" are very blurred. Near as I can tell on the JREF - call a "bigfooter" a few filthy names, accuse them of hoaxing and then never admit you go into the field looking - and you're just fine. But, the second you admit you went out into the woods - your skeptical card gets revoked.
How did I do?
Ms. Hill (in her article) discusses the "Paranormal Bigfooters" more than anyone. Yet, she did not make that distinction. There are different "factions" within this community, and I find it unfortunate she didn't point this out considering she claims so much knowledge of the community. She should know.
I do not do field work with any of the people who hold these attitudes or beliefs she discussed. Yet we are all lumped into the same category. That's about as fair as the nastiness she is complaining about toward the authors of this new book out now. But, her comments about the sexism - yeah spot on. But, women within this community have been talking about this for a long time.
Welcome to the party.
You say scoftic, I say, Bigfooter,
Let's quickly discuss the term she used, "Bigfooters". This word was first used a few years back by the JREF skeptical fans, as an insult, to anyone who gets involved in the Bigfoot research or community. So let’s just be honest about this. If it was not meant as an insult on her part then I stand corrected. But, one must ask, why did she even use it? Ms. Hill has been a part of the JREF community for a long time. I use the word, "Bigfooters." But not because I am trying to show disrespect to my fellow researchers, but by using the word, the sting of it, isn't as nasty.
She discusses Bigfoot Blogs. Then the one she points out is ran by someone who doesn't even do field work. Never fact checks anything, and the worst of the comments on this blog are from people connected to the blog itself or in the die-hard skeptical community. I wish she had made note of that. Maybe she doesn't know? Who knows, but, I give her points for having the guts to call them out.
It sure won't make you popular.
Ms. Hill - it's not about the truth - it's about hits...... You have a blog. You should know that. Sensational sells. That's why that blog, no one goes to for any real information, gets the kind of attention it gets.
The owner simply does not care.
I have no real big problems over all with what she has to say but the problems being discussed in this article are on both sides. Skeptics are just as filthy and insulting, in their comments, as bigfooters can be. So, let's be careful throwing stones, the window you hit, could be your own.
There is very little constructive criticism coming from the skeptical community. Sorry but, "your stupid," or "you're a Bigfooter so your opinion doesn't count," doesn't cut it, as scientific evaluation and criticism.
When it comes to women the gloves come off and anything is fair game. But that's in both the Skeptical Community and the Bigfoot Community. What's even worse is women back these men or they say these things themselves. I guess they don't realize that one day those same insults will come back at them?
So, there is equal opportunity, in that for both communities at least. If you can't find it - it's even okay to make it up. But, Ms. Hill is guilty of this herself. I have seen comments she has made about me - yet she has never even spoken to me or contacted me for any information. So exactly what information has she used to come to her conclusions about me? It sure wasn't both sides.
I have never been shy.
She brings up a book - co-authored by Michael Shermer.. Yeah, pretty sure I know what he has to say. But, just as "Bigfooters" have the right to handle their research however they want (there are no rules) then I guess so does Mr. Shermer.
It's just one more opinion.
It is not my intention to pick on Ms. Hill. Like I said, I have few problems with what she posted. But, let's be honest here.
The skeptical community is not full of saints and neither is the Bigfoot community. Either we all learn how to talk to each other, or maybe, we should just stay away from each other. There is little productive conversation coming from either side and a whole lotta finger pointing with neither side having all the answers.
Sorry, but not even the skeptics are perfect. I have seen some pretty lame arguments on the JREF too coming from skeptics who say one thing in the open, and private message me, something completely different.
August 31, 2013
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August 15, 2013
New Mammal to be announced at Smithsonian today!!
NBC 4 Washington;
The Smithsonian Institution will make a major announcement Thursday. A zoologist from the National Museum of Natural History will reveal the discovery of a new animal species.
Today's announcement will happen around 10 a.m. at the Smithsonian Castle and will be livestreamed here.
The only clue researchers have given so far is that it's a new mammal species. Scientists say such a discovery in the 21st century is incredibly rare.
August 14, 2013
Shark Week is over; and do you believe in Coincidence?
First of all I must apologize. I did not get to see the Shark Week episode that I missed last week (canning beets is tough work) But, I did see bits and pieces...
I know. The episodes I missed was:
Alien Sharks was pretty cool and they did show footage of a live Megamouth Shark. Now, that is worth watching.
I saw part of Sharkpocalypse (this is the show I was watching when the cable box rebooted)- and was confused by one part. In this program they discussed shark repellents to include a repellent made from a pheromone that is released when the shark is dieing.
This is pretty cool. Why? Because this goes back to the Orca that killed the great white off the coast of California near the Farallon islands. How so? Well, when that Orca killed the Great White - the Great Whites that are normally observed in the area did not return for about a year. They high tailed it outta there.
Now what bothers me is this, this reaction by sharks to the scent of a dead or dieing shark is not news. They have been talking about this for years and I mean years. My guess is they have been trying to isolate this pheromone.
Now here is the conundrum. Shark scientists are already wondering if the practice of 'shark finning' could be causing sharks to leave certain areas and setting up shop (for lack of a better term) elsewhere, in waters where they were not known to frequent, and not returning. Thus, attacks where there have never been attacks before. So, if we have divers or swimmers releasing these canisters of repellent into the water - how will that work?
Discovery will have to change their tag line from "It's a bad week to be a seal," to "It's a confusing time to be a shark."
I guess we will have to weigh the good with the bad if and when this repellent ever hits the market.
On a related issue,
I have to wonder how those who said they would be contacting Mr. Kozak are doing in their quest for the truth. I know of one person who said he emailed Mr. Kozak on the 9th of August. But according to friends there is still no word from Mr. Kozak.
Of course this person is not asking him questions or requesting other photos. He just wants to know if it was in fact Mr. Kozak who emailed me. Okay. But considering he and his friends already have Mr. Kozaks ear, I would probably focus on more important issues - like;
"Hey, can you send other photos of the back of the "clawed" suit for comparison?"
There is something interesting I noticed about these statements posted that are under the name of Mr. Kozak.
Here read this:
Look at the date of this email. June 17th. This is August. In the email Mr. Kozak says "I sent an email to Melissa Hovey last week." Bolding mine.
So, why did they hold onto this information for more than a month? Heck, almost two. Hum... Interesting. Where are the emails sent by them to Mr. Kozak? Did they simply get lucky in their timing of these emails to Mr. Kozak?
Interesting. Very interesting. I do not deny that Mr. Kozak may have emailed me, but what I am wondering is why the delay in releasing this information to the world, if they had it almost 2 months ago? And, why are these bloggers not asking Mr. Kozak for more photos? Are they, and Mr. Kozak is not responding to the request? If he won't send other photos to those who are defending him, or me, why? He told me he has many others, yet I have only seen the same photo that is widely available on the internet (of the back of his clawed suit). The clawed suit has only convinced those who already had it in their minds that the photo I released is the "clawed" suit.
Ohhh, the things the mind wonders about.
There are 3 emails posted publicly in total. One in 2012. Then, it's as if they lost interest, no more emails until fast forward to June 17th, and another on June 27th. The first email 4 days after Mr. Kozak emailed me the first time - and they received the last email on very same day Mr. Kozak emailed me.
What are the odds of that? These people should give up Bigfooting and start playing the lottery. Holy Cow!! These anonymous bloggers just happen to email Mr. Kozak at the very same time he has finally emailed me to say this photo belongs to him? They must have felt a disturbance in the force.
Really, I want someone to calculate the odds. That is some wild stuff there.
The wording of these emails are very familiar.... They are so familiar, heck it's scary how familiar these emails are.
I don't believe in coincidence, and neither should any of you. The person behind the emails could very well be Mr. Kozak, but there is something else going on here - but I don't believe in;
August 9, 2013
Shark Week disappointment, Thank you and Kozak.
Unfortunately, I won't be posting today about last night's Shark Week program. Why?
Time Warner decided to update our cable box by doing a reboot. If you think I was upset, you are right.
I will wait for the re-broadcast and give my thoughts then. But, this gives me an opportunity to do something else.
I want to say - Thank you!!!
I have been receiving more emails and Facebook messages than I can frankly keep up with. I will do my best to respond to everyone individually, but that will take some time but I want you all to know, I am fine and I do appreciate all the kind words of support. You have all really made me laugh.
One person put it best, "the people who attack you now, have always attacked you."
This is very true, so this is an old song and dance, and one that doesn't even faze me anymore. I trust this community, has far more people, smart enough to look at everything and come to their own conclusion. I was right and your emails and Facebook messages prove that.
Please do not defend me. I know many of you would like to, and some have, but it will do no good and all that will happen is; you will be attacked. I don't want that. Seeing good people hurt, is not something I want to see.
In the end, the truth is always revealed.
While I cannot discuss the situation I have patience and I can wait. Besides, there are some very funny things being said - and I always enjoy a good laugh. :)
So, I thank you all, so much. Please know I am more than fine. But, I appreciate the concern and the support. It's good to know there are so many good people in this community!!
Mr. Kozak emailed me the first time on 6-13-2013 and a second email was received on 7-28-2013. Two emails in total. Now, mind you, this photo has been out there since Feb of 2012 and the alleged Mr. Kozak never replied to my emails sent to him in 2012.
You would think, if this is his photo, when he received at least 4 emails (from me) with the photo, in question, attached he would have been jumping to email me back. I made the decision after the first email from the alleged Mr. Kozak to simply give him the benefit of the doubt until this part of the story could be determined.
If, that makes me a bad person, that is not my problem.
Mr. Kozak knew about this photo within days of its release in 2012, and he was answering questions for at least 1 blog. In every statement (as pointed out by a blogger) Mr. Kozak gave, in 2012, not once did he say this photo belonged to him. He said this was a costume from his movie. He said absolutely nothing about this photo belonging to him, or being taken by anyone associated with this movie, "Clawed." The alleged Mr. Kozak said nothing expressing anything other than, the photo I released, showed a costume from his movie. There is a big difference.
Why did he wait so long? It's not as if he didn't know and he had already given one statement to a blogger and was contacted by me.
So, all I can wonder is, what is going on?
Everyone should be asking that question because something doesn't sound right.
And it does strike me that last year (the same anonymous blog that can't stop talking about this) also had a person posting comments as Mr. Kozak. It was later discovered that it was not, in fact, Mr. Kozak. The blog did nothing about the fake account using Mr. Kozaks' name - it took another blogger, JRidley, to email Mr. Kozak to discover someone was using his name. The last I checked, the comments off the fake account were still available too. So, they know the person was not Mr. Kozak, yet they have not removed the comments either.
I can see the person now, behind the anonymous blog, the excitement and anticipation in their eyes as this person sees a comment coming into their blog, by a big time movie producer. I'm even willing to bet there was a collective puke session from the initial excitement. No checking if it was him, no, that will just ruin the fun. They rubbed their hands together, as they discussed how important they must be, for Mr. Karl Kozak to be sending a comment to their blog. This could lead to bigger and better things!! We can't just ignore this!! Just post it!! Post it now dang it!!!!
The comment goes public!!!
It wasn't Karl Kozak.
You can't make this stuff up. Wait - that blog proves you can. LOL.
So, I started removing the photo after Mr. Kozak's first email. Do I think the photo I released is a picture of the costume from the movie, "Clawed?" Absolutely not. But the right thing to do is to show caution and allow Mr. Kozak the chance to prove it is. If this is his photo (which I doubt) I know many out there would like to know, myself included.
In my first email to Mr. Kozak, I asked him why he waited so long to contact me. I had emailed him several times with no reply of any kind in return. He ignored that question and every other question.
Which, I find odd.
Usually when someone is the rightful owner of something, they will give you more information than you ask for. Mr. Kozak sends me one photo, the same photo already sent to me by, John Healy, and has been available online since 2012. I know that, because I released it after it was sent to me by Mr. Healy. Before this photo was available there were no other back shots of the costume from the movie, “Clawed.” There was a lot of chest beating but nothing in the way of proof.
I know the truth of this; distresses some greatly. But again that is not my problem. All I can do is tell you all what I know and that's it.
Oh, and the best part. Do I have an assistant? No. The alleged Mr. Kozak sent his email off the ABS website an email address, more people than I, have access to. At that time someone else was handling email for the group as I was sick. I have been battling a respiratory and sinus infection since Dec of 2012 - which sent me to the emergency room about 3 weeks ago. I am excited to see that bill.
No, I am not looking for sympathy. Others are making this an issue. The truth at times can be uncomfortable. If I were looking for sympathy I would have said something on my Facebook page. If you feel it necessary to bash me for being sick (and I know you people exist), then I have a deal for you;
I will prove it. Kindly donate enough money to pay for my medical bill and I will send you a copy of the bill. :) But you gotta send the money up front. It only seems fair. No worries, I know those that don't like me are not willing to actually put their money where their mouths are. So, that's just one more bill I will have to pay. :( Darn it.
So, those who think they know it all should really learn how to mind their own business.
In most groups, that receive reports, there is usually more than one person who reads them and responds. I do not blame the person (who responded to the alleged Mr. Kozak) for not attaching their name or saying what they said. I was unavailable and I had no reason not to get back to him - when I was feeling better. The alleged Mr. Kozak had already waited more than a year, and blew me off, so I didn't think a few more days would kill him and when I was feeling better I did respond.
As a Bigfoot Researcher,
I would love nothing more than to tell you all I have figured out the mystery of this photo. I have not. The alleged Mr. Kozak is not making it any easier, as he has provided nothing which makes this situation any clearer.
If Mr. Kozak has other photos, tell him to release them. Release something that's NOT available on the internet. Others claim a pretty cozy relationship with the alleged Mr. Kozak, so why are they not providing photos or something which proves this is the suit from, "Clawed". It seems odd they would simply believe someone without any proof to back it up.
You have to admit that is pretty odd.
Especially for those people who never simply believe anyone. Maybe this is a new trend they are setting, Instant belief? Don't ask any questions just simply go with the information you are told via email. That seems to be the way this is headed.
And they call me a bad researcher. At least I am trying to get this resolved.
It's real easy to sit behind a computer and say, "she is making excuses." Well, how do you know that? You don't. You're not here, you are not reading my email, you don't know. If you want to call yourself an investigator - do some foot work. Prove it.
Others have seen the email exchanges between me and Mr. Kozak. So, that's all I need. I have their support and they know what is really going on behind the scenes. But, I understand it's very easy to say things and pass judgment on people you don't really know. You have no 'skin' in the game. If I were a friend of yours, would you feel the same way, or, would you wait until all the information is out before you yell 'she's/he's lying'.
I think we all know the answer to that. The attacks on me are not about the issue at hand they are personal. If this had anything to do with the topic of whether, Mr. Kozak, is the owner of this photo they would be killing themselves to get other photos or something which proves the photo I released was the suit from the movie, "Clawed". These attacks are personal.
Just remember one thing.
While you are out there making these judgment about me, in places where you feel safe in doing so, there is someone keeping track of what you say and eventually (as is always the case) your words will come back to haunt you. That's just the way some in this community work and it happens all the time.
You think you’re immune because you think you are friends with the right people?? Come back and talk to me when you have been involved with this community for more than a couple years. It takes time; but it will happen to you just like everyone else. Especially when you are listening to people who have only been around a couple years themselves and want you to believe they have all the answers.
These kinds of attacks have happened to just about every well known researcher in this community. Jealousy is a real difficult thing for some.
Oh, and for those of you who are wondering. Mr. Healy has responded to the first set of questions, and I have already sent the follow-up questions. This may take some time, as he has a very busy schedule.
August 8, 2013
Night 3 of Shark Week; "Great White Serial Killer"
GREAT WHITE SERIAL KILLER
Last night on "Shark Week" we were treated to an interesting idea.
Can patterns be attributed to sharks, in the same way we assign patterns to Serial Killers?
Well, that was the discussion as Jeff Kurr set out to see if two fatal Great White attacks were caused by the same shark.
Honestly, I think it is possible. Everything has a pattern. Developing a pattern of movements is one of the very first thing an investigator would do when looking at a killing to try and determine if it was in fact a Serial Killer.
I applied these same techniques to Bigfoot reports very early on in my involvement in the topic of Bigfoot. Then, unbeknownst to me, a fellow researcher did the very same thing, with the same state, and came up with the exact same results. I keep track of things like, time of year, size, height, smells, and the behavior of the animal.
I apply this to all the reports I investigate now.
I was happy they pointed out that Serial Killers and Great White Sharks kill for very different reasons.
Developing information like this, can go a long way to answering questions about Great White attacks and if there is a way to prevent it. Making the ocean safe for both Great Whites and people.
Okay, so it wasn't as bad as I thought it was.
Have a good day everyone !!